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Rain Within Me by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Rain Within Me

Desolate pool, I will fill you now So long I've ignored you Let others drink the life out of you This time I will make you proud As low as your surface as gotten I will defend your honor Reclaim existence through labor My god, I feel so rotten Forgive me for turning the other cheek I didn't know the world would rape you empty I apologize for not being able to see Consume everything, it's all they seek I'll shed a tear to your floor To begin this healing process My love for others was my weakness I'll save you with an empathetic downpour Now it's just us And you can breathe with me again In the water I see but one reflection This day I did

Anonymous Angels by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Anonymous Angels

I'm feeling grateful For someone so beautiful She held my hand to keep me hopeful That first kiss, unforgettable She welcomed a broken man into her home Open arms that made me feel less alone Showed her the darker corners of my soul Thought she'd run but she didn't break her hold Can't figure out how to repay her She's not like the others Still loving me when I have nothing to offer Just waking up next to her keeps me together I don't believe in miracles But I found an angel She picked me up when I fell Wears a smile saved me from hell So thank you For all that you do I tried to But I can't stop falling for you

Overburden a Burden by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

Rapid Wrong Turns by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Rapid Wrong Turns

Break my ribs, pierce my heart with a rusted knife. Slide the blade between my lips Let my tongue taste the filth. All I am, the dirt on the ground, fed to me. This is different rhythm This is different take… on what I pictured as a child. Shaking my hands, grip locked on anxiety. Breathing not so steady like a crashing aircraft. There’s nobody listening to us! Deep refusal for the existence of an entity. May you appear before me and prove me wrong. Still, I still in your face and reject as a “God” Purge my paranoia by freezing my heartbeat. Something terrible that I can’t see. Only I feel it, I know things a

Desensitize by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

Scars Revisited by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Scars Revisited

The saint with a sinner for a father; plagued before taking his first breath. The mistakes of his creator worn like scars, reopened during every appearance in the public. They carry no knowledge for who he is and his intentions. His dreams and ambitions thrown to the wayside like an unwanted receipt. He has paid for his father's with a lifetime of belittlement and mockery. There is no open mind to see the real person in front them. There is no hope or comfort for him in this world.

Defender by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Defender

I am the mass field between the gates of hell. Protector of the all those with honest souls. Standing in the line of fire with a purpose. Leaving all my emotions on the door to stand strong. I will fight for my beliefs and the people of this universe. I will be the divider pushing the wall of evil back. I will exile those who haunt the dreams of the innocent. I will defend their honor, their life with my own. I am the hand touching the sky purging this galaxy of demons I am the bullet that ends that onslaught once and for all. I am the weapon with ruthless force stomping the opposition. I am the end of all the carnage you wage upon us.

Corny Love Story by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Corny Love Story

I'll tell you a story about time when there was this little boy who met this little girl and though the little seemed quite weird to him he thought about her everyday. And even though the little boy seemed scary to her she wondered what it'd feel like to hold his hand. Too young and too shy to realize they were just right. They lived their lives apart. Years and years passed, they grew up finding different lovers and but never quite forgetting each other. They never thought they'd cross paths again but oh, were they wrong. They bumped into each other coincidentally, some might call it fate or luck. They spoke to each other for the most time,

Sorrow III by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Rain Within Me by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Rain Within Me

Desolate pool, I will fill you now So long I've ignored you Let others drink the life out of you This time I will make you proud As low as your surface as gotten I will defend your honor Reclaim existence through labor My god, I feel so rotten Forgive me for turning the other cheek I didn't know the world would rape you empty I apologize for not being able to see Consume everything, it's all they seek I'll shed a tear to your floor To begin this healing process My love for others was my weakness I'll save you with an empathetic downpour Now it's just us And you can breathe with me again In the water I see but one reflection This day I did

Anonymous Angels by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Anonymous Angels

I'm feeling grateful For someone so beautiful She held my hand to keep me hopeful That first kiss, unforgettable She welcomed a broken man into her home Open arms that made me feel less alone Showed her the darker corners of my soul Thought she'd run but she didn't break her hold Can't figure out how to repay her She's not like the others Still loving me when I have nothing to offer Just waking up next to her keeps me together I don't believe in miracles But I found an angel She picked me up when I fell Wears a smile saved me from hell So thank you For all that you do I tried to But I can't stop falling for you

Overburden a Burden by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

Rapid Wrong Turns by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

Literature

Rapid Wrong Turns

Break my ribs, pierce my heart with a rusted knife. Slide the blade between my lips Let my tongue taste the filth. All I am, the dirt on the ground, fed to me. This is different rhythm This is different take… on what I pictured as a child. Shaking my hands, grip locked on anxiety. Breathing not so steady like a crashing aircraft. There’s nobody listening to us! Deep refusal for the existence of an entity. May you appear before me and prove me wrong. Still, I still in your face and reject as a “God” Purge my paranoia by freezing my heartbeat. Something terrible that I can’t see. Only I feel it, I know things a

Desensitize by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

Scars Revisited by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Scars Revisited

The saint with a sinner for a father; plagued before taking his first breath. The mistakes of his creator worn like scars, reopened during every appearance in the public. They carry no knowledge for who he is and his intentions. His dreams and ambitions thrown to the wayside like an unwanted receipt. He has paid for his father's with a lifetime of belittlement and mockery. There is no open mind to see the real person in front them. There is no hope or comfort for him in this world.

Defender by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

Literature

Defender

I am the mass field between the gates of hell. Protector of the all those with honest souls. Standing in the line of fire with a purpose. Leaving all my emotions on the door to stand strong. I will fight for my beliefs and the people of this universe. I will be the divider pushing the wall of evil back. I will exile those who haunt the dreams of the innocent. I will defend their honor, their life with my own. I am the hand touching the sky purging this galaxy of demons I am the bullet that ends that onslaught once and for all. I am the weapon with ruthless force stomping the opposition. I am the end of all the carnage you wage upon us.

Corny Love Story by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

Literature

Corny Love Story

I'll tell you a story about time when there was this little boy who met this little girl and though the little seemed quite weird to him he thought about her everyday. And even though the little boy seemed scary to her she wondered what it'd feel like to hold his hand. Too young and too shy to realize they were just right. They lived their lives apart. Years and years passed, they grew up finding different lovers and but never quite forgetting each other. They never thought they'd cross paths again but oh, were they wrong. They bumped into each other coincidentally, some might call it fate or luck. They spoke to each other for the most time,

Sorrow III by xxxENDWELLxxx, literature

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Animals in Captivity - Poem Competition by Shurely, literature

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Animals in Captivity - Poem Competition

He stared as the tigress walked by The beautiful, glowing fur like fire Better in a cage where it can be tamed And not hunted like its pathetic prey. The wolf glared from his mysterious den He used to be the alpha wolf then But as the ice clearings were cold, the cage Was colder, never melting from his stare. The stands, the shops, so insignificant Compared to all the beasts magnificent… Oh he'd bought so much for so little cash! He was the owner of the greatest stash Of animals, well they were fantastic. Providing to be the bane of plastic Figurines the children so proudly bought He chuckled merrily at the thought. Up an

Vengeance by DeviousKid45, literature

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Vengeance

Sow the seeds of all deception, as I near upon your dwelling, Step by step, eye for eye, while my wrath has reached the heaven high, God's judgement, I bring to you, as I near upon your doorstep, While you have barely noticed all the creaking of my footstep, Now it seems of all the things unhinged, still there as you dine, Gleaming scythe I carry here, watched you drink the wine, Seven glasses of the juice of vine, wrath I bring divine, Sat in shadows as I watched, you said, "Everything is fine," Then I rose upon my laurels while you have never noticed, With a swing of my coveted scythe, darkness came enticed, Heard your confusion and it am

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About xxxENDWELLxxx

Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Feb 28, 1990
United States
Deviant for 13 years
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I write. I wish I was better. I've only posted small pieces so far. Maybe I'll post some chapters of my stories soon when I feel they're ready. I suppose that's my only talent, if I'm even at all good. My son, Tristan, is everything to me. I trust few; My brother, and some other family. Maybe I'll be something, maybe nothing. I'm pessimistic on a high scale. I guess that's another huge flaw of mine. Feel sorry for nothing. Get stronger after everything.

Current Residence: Central, MA
Favourite genre of music: Hardcore or Acoustic
Favourite cartoon character: Vegeta
Personal Quote: I don't know if I'm alive exactly. All I know is how undead her love truly makes me.

Instagram- @mikefmd

Favourite Movies

Fight Club, American History X, Remember Me, Donnie Darko.

Favourite TV Shows

Supernatural, Family Guy, Skins UK

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Bleeding Through, Endwell, American Me, The Early November, Blink-182, Mudvayne, SlipKnoT, Etc.

Favourite Books

Fight Club.

Favourite Writers

Chuck P. or Anne Rice

Favourite Games

Final Fantasy, Resident Evil, MGS, Mass Effect

Favourite Gaming Platform

Playstation/Gameboy/Xbox

Tools of the Trade

Body Piercer

Other Interests

Writing, Real Friends, Body Art, Late Nights, etc.

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Been a while

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I feel like I'm just sifting through the days trying to find my own person. I feel like I've failed myself lately. I've become someone I'm not, and I need to change that. Some things are easy to change, others more difficult. I also haven't been the best person to the person I love. I want to make amends, I'm going to. I want what she wants as a couple, and our little family. I have to admit though I have lost all desire in any personal goals. I can't tell if I'm depressed or just given up, which is a poor excuse because I need to just step and take control of my life. I have to.

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Happy Birthday Love

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I have crossed paths with many different people. Some good, some bad, few great, many terrible. But my god do you steal my breath away. I can't even fathom it most of the time. It's not obsession or attachment. It's absolute love and maybe something more, better. Though I wouldn't know the word but it has your face. That gorgeous face that lights up the little world within me. I'm speechless every time I think of all you've done for me. I don't know how to feel about it sometimes. It's so strange, the kindness, that is. You opened up the hallways that were left dormant in my soul. I thought forgot myself for a long time. I was j

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Breeding Failures

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Strings of failure after failure. Label me a mistake, for that is I all I feel I am. "You won't make it far, you won't make it anywhere" Leave me alone, abandon me, I deserve solitude. I'm drowning in this sea I created with my own hands. Rotten and grotesque. I'm good at nothing. I succeed as often as a corpse. Shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up! Erase these fucking thoughts. Desolation overwhelming me. I don't feel sorrow or pity for myself. I embrace the nothingness I concocted. I'll take this drink and fall asleep. No more losing, no more tomorrows.

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